I’m drunk and i need to say this to someone i know will care at least a little: after all these years and a dive in the sea under the stars, my confusion gets smaller and i get closer to feeling whole all at once. It feels so good to leave some of all that package behind, knowing that it’s there for the lessons, but it’s not on my shoulders if i don’t want to. I get to choose. That’s a fucking big deal. That’s all.